Signs

Death is one of those difficult things. We understand in theory what it means. We understand that grieving takes time and that life changes even if you will it to stay the same. The question we all have is what happens after: Is there an afterlife? Are we Reincarnated? Is there a Heaven, Hell, or Purgatory? Do spirits stay around to watch over us? What happens to the ones we love when they can no longer be here physically??

I've come to realize that even though my Dad is no longer physically here, he is still present. I now believe in things that one year ago I would have thought were crazy ideas. I believe he watches over us. I believe in ghosts. I believe that he is here to comfort me and when I need him most he will show up (hopefully with a drink in hand).

I know he has spoken to me on at least one run. I also had a sign from him today (at least that's what I want to believe it was). I went to the gym today. They always show two movies at the gym. I always look to see what they are and today I did not. After my workout, I saw a friend who I have seen in awhile. She said she had gotten my fundraising email and was excited for me and proud. This made me feel so good. On my way out I looked to see what two movies were playing: "Can't Buy Me Love" and one of my Dad's favorite movies ,"Young Frankenstein". My Dad loved Mel Brooks movies. I've seen Blazing Saddles more times than I can count. Maybe this isn't a sign...maybe it's coincidence...but whatever it was I know he was with me today.